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huhuhu.. nyesel jg dah lama banget gw gag nulis di blog ini.. padahal banyak banget kejadian2 yg mestinya bisa gw tuliskan dalam blog ini.. :(

tp entah kenapa dah berapa bulan ini kali ya rasanya malessss bgt mo upload tulisan diblog, padahal tulisan itu ada tapi ntar cuman kesimpen aja di draft kalo gag kesave di laptop tp lupa di transfer di flashdisk (namanya jg anak makmal jadinya senjata utamanya itu ya flashdisk! hehehe :D

ok, balik ke topik awal,, sbenernya niat buat nulis ini lg tiba2 ngalir gitu aja, gara2 keinget sm omongan gw sm sohib gw,( si tetangga sebelah kamar) yg semalem sampe jam 3an pagi ngedekem di kamar gw karena mo belajar buat ujian PR (Public Relations) bareng dan dari omongan yg tadinya ngomongin ntu plajaran truss tiba2 topik kita brubah jadi ngomongin film lah, overall, jadilah omongan ngalur ngidul gitu deh, sampe akhirnya gw secara gag sengaja malah cerita2 ttg jaman SMA dulu.

sumpah gw jadi kangen sm jaman2 SMA dulu!

gw kangen cerita2 sama sohib2 jaman sma. kangen sama suasana kelas yg rame’ tp ternyata anak2nya solid banget. gw jadi inget pas gw dulu pindah ke sma itu gw sempet nganggep anak2 disini gag ada yg bakal nyambung ama gw.. tp gw akuin gw salah dari mereka justru gw banyak belajar buat nyari temen bukan diliat dari tingkat intelektualitas mereka, bukan diliat dari tinggal di mana dia, bukan diliat dari naek apa dia ke sekolah dan bukan diliat dari penampilannya! tapi dari hatinya…

sangat sulit untuk mencari teman dah sahabat yg bisa mengerti kita apa adanya, nasehatin kita tanpa menggurui kita dan bisa sama2 ketawa lepas dan nangis sama2..

emang bener sma itu masa yg gag bakal terlupakan dalam hidup kita.. gw baru ngerti kenapa begitu..

dan dari sma yang terletak di kota kecil itulah aku telah membuka pintu baru bagiku melangkah menuju jalan yg aku tapak sekarang..

sekarang aku cuman bisa ketawa dan kalo inget semuanya.. semua memori yg pahit, manis, yg kini bisa aku syukuri karena aku telah pernah  merasakan, menjalani, dan melewatinya tanpa satupun yang akhirnya kusesali..

:)

for some1: kamu pasti bisa jg! it’s juz we’ve different path.. x)

Miss Invisible

Theres a girl
Who sits under the bleachers
Just another day eating alone
And though she smiles
There is something just hiding
And she cant find a way to relate
She just goes unnoticed
As the crowd passes by
And she’ll pretend to be busy
When inside she just wants to cry
She’ll say…

Take a little look at the life of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little closer, I really really want you to put yourself in her shoes
Take another look at the face of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little harder and maybe then you will see why she waits for the day
When you’ll ask her her name

The begining, in the first weeks of class
She did everything to try and fit in
But the others they couldnt seem to get past all the things that mismatched on the surface
And she would close her eyes when they left and she fell down the stairs
And the more that they joked
And the more that they screamed
She retreated to where she is now
And she’ll sing…

Take a little look at the life of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little harder I really really want you to put yourself in her shoes
Take a little look at the face of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little closer and maybe then you will see why she waits for the day that you will ask her…her name

And one day just the same as the last
Just the days been in counting the time
Came a boy that sat under the bleachers just a little bit further behind..

LASKAR PELANGI dan kenangannya..

yah, meskipun saat ku menontonnya aku tak tersentuh sedahsyat sekarang, ku yang menangis hanya dengan mendengar soundtracknya saja..

entah karena ceritanya yang memiliki suatu tali yang bersambungan dengan cerita hidupku..
atau hidup yang pernah ku lihat dan kutakut kan terjadi nanti …

- bravo for “LASKAR PELANGI

*PENDIDIKAN ADALAH  HAK UNTUK SEMUA WARGA NEGARA INDONESIA!

 

I ♥ U ma!

*Cause I am a Superwoman
Yes I am
Yes she is
Still when I’m a mess
I still put on a vest
With an S on my chest
Oh yes

I’m a Superwoman

~Alicia Keys - Superwoman~

aku menitikkan air mata saat kudengar dan kurenungi makna dari lirik lagu ini..

seperti ada slide-slide film yang berputar kembali kemasa lalu yg mengingatkanku akan dirimu Ibu..
banyak tawa dan air mata yg keluar dari mu d
alam membesarkanku..

lagu ini memang untukmu Ibu..
the real extraordinary human being that ever lived in this world..
cz u are truly working hard inside and outside to keep ur little sweet daughter and son can facing towards their life..

yeah i really think that this song was created for u mommy all over the world..

for u my mom,

u were the one who companied me first going into school..

u were the one who prepared for my breakfast to i’d carry always..
u were the one who cared me intensely and wrote a letter for school if i was getting sick..
u were the one who would talk to those teachers that u thought has hurted (us) ur kids feelings’..
beside that u always reminded me to be brave facing this world..
to keep ur head up when problems come to u..

it’s true that how hurtfull and messed up u inside, u will always show up perfectly to protect ur kids.. ( it does true..)
and u would always stay by ourside in whatever, wherever, and whenever we need u, to stand up again and start walking as human being…


i can’t say enough how i can say thanks to u..
cz u deserve more than it..

i juz can say that i really gratefull being ur daughter mom..
U mom!

18 August 2008 3:41 am

*free download lagu Superwoman disini

i’m going into semifinal Searching for Stars!

gw yg paling atas! heheheee

gw yg paling atas! heheheee

ya allah terimakasih. i
never believed that i’m gonna be able into semifinal things or something.. i
just wanna have fun. i just wanna sing to express and free my voice. but u give
me a pass to enter the game. u gave me a card to go out and facing my destiny.
even i tried to hide myself but what u gave to me will never been erased by me
or anybody. finally, i have to show up and come into front again like i have
done before in my past one year ago”

“to all who i believe and
believe as my friends, please

give me support to sing on
Monday, 4 august, 8pm at Pusat Kebudayaan Pelajar
.
i can’t warranty
anything but maybe u will give the strengths to this poor girl”

please give me the strength
again, God-